1. This didn't happen with my first two pregnancies. I know that I can and have had success having children.

2. The doctors, nurses, and other hospital staff were wonderful, professional, and did their best to make a horrific situation bearable.

3. I have a healthy son and a healthy daughter, and so the fact that we will never know if this was a boy or a girl is a little easier to deal with.

4. My mom was planning to come out even before we found out about the baby's death. She would have come out anyway, but it was one less thing to figure out at the time.

5. I'm 30 and have years and years of good reproductive ability left in me.

6. This happened at one of the only times this year that we don't have 5 other things going on. We were/ are able to take a step back and have the freedom to grieve, feeling no stress to put it aside and deal with the next thing on our list. I am so thankful for this, as I have really struggled just keeping up with daily activity.

7. They are letting us have the ashes; I was worried that our child would have to be disposed of without the possibility of us participating. But they will send us the baby's ashes and we get to lay our child to rest. I think I am going to take the ashes out west to our cabin at Bear Lake.

8. I never got to hold this child. This seems strange, I know, but I didn't know this child, there are so many question marks that surround this life that I don't have a concrete relationship to point to and miss. I miss this life, of course, but we know that we were shown mercy that we didn't have to experience the loss of a child that we met.

9. The medical/ physical side to this loss has gone as smoothly and as uncomplicated as possible.

10. God put into my life, Miles. I couldn't go through this with anyone else; he is such a great husband, father and best friend. He has stepped up where I have stumbled, and kept things going even when I haven't been able to.  I am not perfect, or anywhere near it and I am extended mercy and grace from Miles everyday and I am so glad that I get to spend my life with him, even if we have to go through terrible times like this. I wouldn't want to go through it without him.