Recently in Frustration Category
1. Even as I type "1." my eyes well up with tears. Kona has been gone for exactly two months. I thought this would get easier, but everyday I think about her and how much our lives are missing without her in them. I am so sorry that I failed at protecting you Kona Bean, I finally have the courage to tell you that I wasn't as diligent in keeping you safe as I should have been. Why didn't I make sure you were in the house when we left?!?!?! You were a precious part of God's creation and a sweet gift in my life. I will go to my grave feeling guilty that you didn't get to live out your life with us. I hope that you are part of Heaven.
2. I miss my mom. My mom was suppose to come out for Halleigh's birthday, but she has too much going on in her life right now, so she just can't get away. I know that in my brain, but I miss her terribly, and I just can't help but be sad for Halleigh and I both. It is hard to have all of my family know my children in pictures...
3. On a happier note, I think my dad is coming again in October, which will be great! My favorite part about the summers of building the cabin were bring able to be around him while he worked. The last time he was here doing plumbing on our house I was reliving that happy time, and I am looking forward to it again.
3. This semester sucks. Having Miles gone two nights is awful already and it is only September!
4. I have GOT to go grocery shopping!
5. Women's Bible Study starts today, that is a bright spot. I have been missing that fellowship.
6. Oh crap! It's 7:30! I gotta go get Halleigh ready for school.
There is so much that I could say, but where to begin is difficult. Both are great and terrible, exciting and terrifying...
We'll let you know how things pan out.
I had this really great post going yesterday about how I have gotten the crafting bug lately, and I spent time looking through my craft idea folder, and putting links with pictures, ugh it was going to be so great. Then Beau comes along and TURNS OFF THE COMPUTER! I thought that it would have been saved as a draft, because it is suppose to do that?!?!?! No, it didn't.
This has totally taken the wind out of my blogging/ crafting sails. poop
I had my follow-up appointment with the nurologist today to talk about the results of my blood work (that totalled $4500... thank goodness for insurance). After telling me that I am HORRIBLY deficient in Vitamin D, he said, "Other than the Vitamin D deficency, you may be the healthiest person I have ever seen." It was hilarious, for several reasons... #1 I take a daily pill because I had heart failure, three very short years ago. #2 He had just gotten done telling me that I was so deficent in vitamin D that it was prbably doing skeletal damage. #3 I could be in better shape... or in any shape. #4 Oh yeah, and I had four migraines in a week last month, which set off this round of appointments... yeah, I am totally the picture of health. :)
I was starting to wonder why no one was commenting on my totally awesome posts, and Miles said that my blog might have had the same error problem that his had... he checked... it did.
He fixed the problem, so now I expect you to comment. :)
So, I am embarrassed that my blog is still Christmas themed... so I am not posting until it is fixed. Miles has my new theme; why it isn't up, I don't know. I have asked him SEVERAL TIMES! hint. hint.
Sorry, I'll be back as soon as Christmas is over.
